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not feeling close anymore

After I had to leave my home a few weeks ago because of domestic violence, I moved back to help H get to and from work for a few days for a temporary job. While back he wanted to work things out, I said I'd consider whatever he had in mind but I wasn't moving back until I had a very good reason to believe he was working on his issues. Then I got ringworm and bronchitis in the 5 days I was living with him, the friend I was living with didn't want ringworm coming back to her place and I didn't want to bring it around her kids anyways. So instead of working things out at a distance, we're back living together.

Since being back he's wanted to have sex a few times, but didn't even finish(neither could I). He hasn't even done anything nice or different aside from a tucked tail "I'm sorry" like I'm just supposed to pick up and start doing everything for him again. I'm not even happy anymore and it makes me upset. I do love him, but after all of that and he can't even say anything nice or physically love me, I can't even stand being in the same room as him right now.

The 2 friends who had to help me move say I should just get out once I'm feeling better and have financial means to do so. As it is I am the only one working steadily and paying most of the bills. We were in the middle of buying a place when all this trouble started, I don't even know where my life is going anymore. I'm 21 and I know I have time to move on and start over, but I feel like I don't even have the energy anymore. Am I ever gonna forgive him? Is he really gonna change? LOL Even I know that's probably a fat "no". Do I even talk to him about this? If he could talk about his feelings that is.

I don't even know if there's a real question to this, I'm just so angry and trapped and 'pent up' maybe this is more venting than anything

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