i broke up with my bf 2 months ago after 3 yrs together
were both pretty much in love with each other but we had problems like hes not from the same country as me and im not the same religion as him
he wanted me to convert to his sect of islam even tho i am muslim too (i know right its always muslims *sigh*)
i said i dont believe in it after researching what he believed and he accused me of hating his religion and we broke up
thinking about my future husband just depresses me because 1 i feel like il always compare him to my 1st love (my friend always goes on about her 1st love and how no one compares to him even after 4 yrs of splitting up with him)
also worried because im probably going to have an arranged marriage and whats worse is probably someone from my original country since not many from my country who are same religion as me live in england (never met anyone else same as me in england) i dont speak my language properly so i dont even know how i will communicate effectively with my partner and their mindset will also be different than a normal male born and brought up in this country
whats even worse is my bro and his wife had an argument in front of me yesterday and she said she regrets getting married so much
every where i look i see how unhappy everyone is in their marriage (or it seems like that to me anyway) i dont want to be like that
also just thinking about someone else makes me feel guilty as if im somehow cheating on my ex even tho we broke up. thnking of being with someone else just makes me so depressed
dont want ppl to say get back with ur ex because not only has he made it very clear he doesnt want to but i dont think itl work out anyway culture and religion is just too important :'(
were both pretty much in love with each other but we had problems like hes not from the same country as me and im not the same religion as him
he wanted me to convert to his sect of islam even tho i am muslim too (i know right its always muslims *sigh*)
i said i dont believe in it after researching what he believed and he accused me of hating his religion and we broke up
thinking about my future husband just depresses me because 1 i feel like il always compare him to my 1st love (my friend always goes on about her 1st love and how no one compares to him even after 4 yrs of splitting up with him)
also worried because im probably going to have an arranged marriage and whats worse is probably someone from my original country since not many from my country who are same religion as me live in england (never met anyone else same as me in england) i dont speak my language properly so i dont even know how i will communicate effectively with my partner and their mindset will also be different than a normal male born and brought up in this country
whats even worse is my bro and his wife had an argument in front of me yesterday and she said she regrets getting married so much
every where i look i see how unhappy everyone is in their marriage (or it seems like that to me anyway) i dont want to be like that
also just thinking about someone else makes me feel guilty as if im somehow cheating on my ex even tho we broke up. thnking of being with someone else just makes me so depressed
dont want ppl to say get back with ur ex because not only has he made it very clear he doesnt want to but i dont think itl work out anyway culture and religion is just too important :'(
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