There's something wrong with me

I'm really depressed and I think that there is something wrong with me. My ex and I broke up 6 months ago (it was 60% him and 40% me. There was no cheating. The relationship just died out). I unfortunately work with him, and while I work at a different location than he does, I do have to see him about once a month or so. I can not and do not want to quit my job, because I love what I do. I teach martial arts to children, and I absolutely love it. It makes me very happy. But lately, I just haven't been happy anymore. I am a 20 year old female and have had problems with depression and anxiety my whole life. A normal person would of been able to move on after 6 months of a breakup, but not me... I seem to move on, but then I go right back to being depressed. I'm starting to think that life isn't worth living at all anymore . My ex has moved on from me completely. When I think about it, I don't even want to be with my ex anymore deep down inside because he is not what I am looking for in a partner. But for some reason, I am just so incredibly upset over this. Sometimes I just feel like life isn't worth living anymore.

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