I got served - at work :(

Today started off a little rocky. I got up a little late and had to get my son ready and dropped off at school and then straight to work. But on this particular morning, after I had dropped off my son, I just started crying about the state of my marriage. The magnitude of everything hit me especially hard when a song started playing that always made me think about my wife. I gathered the strength I needed to hold the tears back as I opened the business and my colleagues started to arrive. I got settled in and came here to TAM to follow up on a couple of threads I had been reading, and then a gentleman came and asked for me by name. It didn't hit me until I had introduced myself and he leaned close as I shook his hand. And it did hit me... like a ton of bricks. I wondered "why is this a surprise, it's not like you did not already know your wife's intentions?" I've known for a little while now that my wife wanted to end things, and I have posted enough on here that other people probably know too. I always tried to be encouraging to others as they went through the same situations and it helped me be strong as well. So why do I feel like I'm completely falling apart right now? Why do I again feel like my heart is being torn to shreds? My wife obviously does not care at all about me. She has s*it on my feelings for long enough. The infidelity, the abandonment, the INILWY talk and this... you would think I would be used to it by now. But it still hurts to be treated this way by the one you love unconditionally.

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