He said he is tired of me acting like a "b*tch". Am I? Is it all my fault?

My husband and I had a huge fight yesterday. It all started with him automatically blaming me for loosing unused memory card from our camera and me telling him that I did not and why he assumes that it has to be me. Always me. After this, he told me he is tired of me acting like a b*tch. That I fight with him over stupid things like that. I said it was about him blaming me for everything that is wrong. He said he is done with me, with this marriage. That he tried to work on it these past few months when he went to MC with me twice. But it was me who did not do anything. He said I have a problem and he can't fix it. I asked if it is just me who did mistakes in our marriage because for me it is 50/50. Of course he said I have a bigger blame than that. I said was it my fault when you pushed me away from you with the way you treated me before? (physical, emotional abuse) Now, when he is nice and all, he can't understand why I can't jump into his open arms. It made him mad that I brought that part of history because for him it is the past…nothing important now. He said I can't even take care about our house anymore, that I was raised that way so I think its ok. If I was that way, how come you told me I could do it before??? I asked him, if I was that kind of b..ch as he said I am, would I be washing his dirty clothes and have his freshly ironed ones ready for him every morning? Would I wake him up everytime he felt asleep on couch just to get him into his own bed? When we buy something special to eat, I always leave half for him or whole piece and don't eat it all myself like he does a lot. But I am the most selfish person in this marriage. After all this blaming, I felt like worst of worse wives. As if I never did anything for him and all I did was wrong. It is killing me… I know he is hurt that our marriage is not working, so am I. I did very big mistake by cheating on him long time ago but I was never this b…tch as he described me. I know I used to cook and clean a lot more but I was not as busy as I am now. I do work every weekday and then do my second job on weekends and it leaves me tired. He never helps me with laundry; he will vacuum once in a while, take out garbage, sort mail and cook a supper sometime. I appreciate what he does but I feel burn out with rest of my chores. He said he does enough. I think, for him, perfect wife would be his perfect maid. I don't know. Yesterday, after that fight, I just cried and moved out our master bedroom. I was hurt and mad. And I also felt bad for him. I know it is hurting him to see how cold I became. I just don't know what to do at this point. He said his character is better than mine. I guess he is right after all…and deserves better.

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