Post divorce I've changed. A LOT. I used to dress how my ex liked - long shapeless skirts and shirts that buttoned up to my neck. Basically like a pilgrim who had just landed on Plymouth Rock. (yuck)
Post divorce I lost weight, am wearing short shorts, and lightened my hair. Oh, and I wear shirts with a plunging-v and/or tank top. When I post pictures on social media, a lot more people are "liking" my stuff. Don't get me wrong - I like the attention. But at the same time, I don't. Even though I am just dressing in what makes me feel good, I guess I'm just not used to extra attention. It still feels undeserved and weird.
Does this go away? I think part of it is sometimes guys who I know are in relationships will "like" my stuff and it triggers me since I was cheated on. However, they might just be liking my pics because I totally have a new lease on life and am usually doing something fun in the picture I post, like hiking or golfing or whatever.
Sorry for the rambling....it's just weird when you've been in the background for so long to suddenly feel "front and center." Two years since my separation/D and I'm still not used to it.........
Hoping it goes away. I am worthy of attention, of feeling sexy and attractive. Why is that so hard to get used to?
Post divorce I lost weight, am wearing short shorts, and lightened my hair. Oh, and I wear shirts with a plunging-v and/or tank top. When I post pictures on social media, a lot more people are "liking" my stuff. Don't get me wrong - I like the attention. But at the same time, I don't. Even though I am just dressing in what makes me feel good, I guess I'm just not used to extra attention. It still feels undeserved and weird.
Does this go away? I think part of it is sometimes guys who I know are in relationships will "like" my stuff and it triggers me since I was cheated on. However, they might just be liking my pics because I totally have a new lease on life and am usually doing something fun in the picture I post, like hiking or golfing or whatever.
Sorry for the rambling....it's just weird when you've been in the background for so long to suddenly feel "front and center." Two years since my separation/D and I'm still not used to it.........
Hoping it goes away. I am worthy of attention, of feeling sexy and attractive. Why is that so hard to get used to?
Put the internet to work for you.
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