So here's the deal:I've basically been an only child all my life so naturally I tend to be a bit of a loner at times since my parents are kind of strict about me going out on my own and stuff.I'm also introverted but not greatly so that i dont turn into a massive extrovert when i do things i love e.g. FOOTBALL
As a result I told my friends when i was younger(in primary school) that parties were a no -no (after my mum made it clear that i cant go to any person's party unless she personally knew their parents - which basically meant never)
Fast forward to secondary the same thing really,I made a few close knit friends who i keep in contact with and eventually i moved onto a different sixth form...now i dont mind about the whole not going to party thing since their not really my style anyway but its just that sometimes i feel lonely as fudge...literally none of my friends are really the type to go "hey guys lets go to the cinema or something" and it didnt really help matters that i was the only one from my secondary school that decided to go to that sixth form...
One positive is that she's a bit more lax and trusting now about me going out which is good...I realised a long time ago that it really is unfair to blame the whole "only child" scenario since i guess there was a reason my mum decided to stop at one child...how can i try not to feel so lonely at home?
Sometimes I slip into a state when i wish i had brothers or sisters as i feel that would have partly made my life easier especially as we're about to start all this UCAS and uni stuff in year 13...almost all my friends have had brother or sister go through UCAS and go to uni and if i'm totally honest i get jealous since i feel so lost sometimes...any advice on what i can do so that i dont feel that way?
For those of you wondering about my father:he's basically not been living with me and my mum since I done my GCSE's they weren't on the best of terms and dont get me wrong i love him but our relationship is kind of awkward at the moment...
Poured out my soul there... :{
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