Hi, I'm new as of today. I am really needing some advice on something that I do not feel comfortable discussing even with my closest friend. I'm 23 my husband is 29. Before I say anything else, my husband does not in anyway come off as if he would be gay but he was a virgin until he met me when he was 26 which to me isn't weird, I appreciated it. I thought it was a nice surprise.
About 10 months into our relationship and being pregnant with our first we were living together and I was working part time. One day he offered to drive me to work and pick me up. The next day I went through his phone because of issues we had while we were dating he had been talking to an ex so I was just paranoid. I checked his email and there was a Post/Edit/Delete email in his folder from craigslist. I clicked on it and it brought me to an ad basically my now husband, then fiance looking to service a man orally, wanting pics, and size preference & also saying he had to be done by 4pm which I had gotten off that day @ 5pm. Now, there were no other replies sent or recieved but I confronted him about it and I feel let it slide way too easily. He basically explained that it was just a fantasy and he was masturbating and posting that ad added to the masturbation...idk. My gut tells me he actually thought about doing it and then changed his mind quickly and deleted it.
Another thing is kind of at random he went and bought a strap on. Now I had told him once that I sometimes thought it was hot when girls wear strap ons and use on OTHER girls in porn but he wanted me to use the strap on on him. I did a few times, and I'm just going to say he took it well lol.
Then it hit me that it was weird, and I didn't really want to do my man...I want my man to bang me! So I started to get a little turned off by him sexually.
Sometimes I will give him a blow job or hand job to porn if I don't feel like having actual sex....and I noticed that he gets really turned on during the blow job scenes and it seems like that's what he is cool with just watching. I'm not even a man and if I am going to watch porn then I like to see a beautiful woman & body...not a bj. IDK its weird. Last night we watched one while I performed oral and I was joking when I saw "African Blow Job" and said Oh lets watch this one...he always lets me pick the video, but he seemed cool with watching that one so I'm like Okay.....
Am I just being paranoid? Or do you think there is a chance he is at least curious? I have asked him before and he says he is not. But all the signs point to...
About 10 months into our relationship and being pregnant with our first we were living together and I was working part time. One day he offered to drive me to work and pick me up. The next day I went through his phone because of issues we had while we were dating he had been talking to an ex so I was just paranoid. I checked his email and there was a Post/Edit/Delete email in his folder from craigslist. I clicked on it and it brought me to an ad basically my now husband, then fiance looking to service a man orally, wanting pics, and size preference & also saying he had to be done by 4pm which I had gotten off that day @ 5pm. Now, there were no other replies sent or recieved but I confronted him about it and I feel let it slide way too easily. He basically explained that it was just a fantasy and he was masturbating and posting that ad added to the masturbation...idk. My gut tells me he actually thought about doing it and then changed his mind quickly and deleted it.
Another thing is kind of at random he went and bought a strap on. Now I had told him once that I sometimes thought it was hot when girls wear strap ons and use on OTHER girls in porn but he wanted me to use the strap on on him. I did a few times, and I'm just going to say he took it well lol.
Then it hit me that it was weird, and I didn't really want to do my man...I want my man to bang me! So I started to get a little turned off by him sexually.
Sometimes I will give him a blow job or hand job to porn if I don't feel like having actual sex....and I noticed that he gets really turned on during the blow job scenes and it seems like that's what he is cool with just watching. I'm not even a man and if I am going to watch porn then I like to see a beautiful woman & body...not a bj. IDK its weird. Last night we watched one while I performed oral and I was joking when I saw "African Blow Job" and said Oh lets watch this one...he always lets me pick the video, but he seemed cool with watching that one so I'm like Okay.....
Am I just being paranoid? Or do you think there is a chance he is at least curious? I have asked him before and he says he is not. But all the signs point to...
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