We have been married for 24 years and it's been a very unhappy 24 years for me. It seems we never were in love from the very beginning. There were some unsettling things about her that I chose to ignore but married her anyway. Her parents always pushed me away telling me I wasn't "rich" enough for their daughter. Add to that my career which has always been in crisis involving moving across country and many layoffs. The cross country move was due to my wife telling my bosses wife that he was cheating at a Christmas Party. I immediately lost my job the next day. Many people have told me I'm in this mess because I didn't divorce her right there and then. That showed me that she really doesn't care if we made it or not. Losing my job that time very nearly finished us financially. Even now 15 years later we aren't totally recovered. I've let this really sour the way I feel about her and can't trust her. I won't let her go to company functions with me.
By the grace of God, I've been able to find something better each time I've lost a job. She claims to be a Christian but swears like a drunken sailor whenever she gets home from work. We aren't compatible anymore and not attracted to each other anymore. I find myself losing hope.
I went to a well known "Men's Right's" divorce attorney before and he told me that he would not represent me because I would be so financially ruined if I got a divorce, he did not want to be responsible.
I have read His Needs, Her Needs and found it to be a waste of time. The book is really for people who want to be together again, not for us. I wish that was at least some evidence that she wants to be a couple again but there's nothing. I really do not see myself with her much longer although I wish there was something that I could do to make us a normal couple. I think, though, it was really never meant to be and I made a big mistake in the beginning to marry her.
By the grace of God, I've been able to find something better each time I've lost a job. She claims to be a Christian but swears like a drunken sailor whenever she gets home from work. We aren't compatible anymore and not attracted to each other anymore. I find myself losing hope.
I went to a well known "Men's Right's" divorce attorney before and he told me that he would not represent me because I would be so financially ruined if I got a divorce, he did not want to be responsible.
I have read His Needs, Her Needs and found it to be a waste of time. The book is really for people who want to be together again, not for us. I wish that was at least some evidence that she wants to be a couple again but there's nothing. I really do not see myself with her much longer although I wish there was something that I could do to make us a normal couple. I think, though, it was really never meant to be and I made a big mistake in the beginning to marry her.
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