This week we had sex once (PIV) and yesterday I gave him a BJ. I can't remember the last time we had sex twice in a week, probably since last year. I told myself I needed to try harder! If it meant giving him a BJ every single night , I was willing ! I wanted too it if meant getting out of a sexless marriage. Then today he woke up with a headache, a really bad one. I tried giving him a massage. Didn't want one I told him to just relax and lay down with me , I would cook and take care of everything. Didn't want too Later on he started cleaning the house ( which he never does). He did all the laundry and cleaned behind all the couches. He cooked and spent all day away from me, like he was avoiding me. I was grateful for him doing all the house work. I wanted to give him a hug and kiss to thank him. He backed off Later on the evening we got into a fight about money ( I posted in the problem finance thread). Now back to square one. I thought we had made progress. I was feeling optimistic after our PIV encounter I felt an emotional and physical connection. I couldn't stop thinking about him. I had a smile on my face, I felt wanted and sexy. I am trying so hard to be happy in this marriage, I am also starting to realize that his control over the money is far more serious than the control over sex (or lack thereof). I keep on reminding myself that I have a 2 year old daughter who needs stability in her life. She has a wonderful father who doesn't know how to be a husband yet (words I keep on repeating to myself over and over and over). I am TRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | |||
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PIV and BJ in one week (record)
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