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Admitting my insecurities / lack of self esteem...

New to the forum...thanks in advance for all those who are listening.

The story is too long to write out, so I will give a brief explanation: This girl and I started dating about 3.5 years ago. I am 23, she is 22. In between the 3.5 years, I have suggested taking breaks, during which I hooked up with girls while on those breaks. She hooked up with one person as well. Bottom line, we have taken too many "breaks"....all of them a result of me not knowing exactly what I want (a solid relationship vs being single). I am realizing now that I want a relationship, and am reaching the age where I no longer care about the whole "club" and "party" scene.

I admit I had NO CLUE what I wanted. Looking back on the whole thing, I realize I probably ruined something with a woman who is a very good person, and who I frankly did not deserve. She was a better person than I, more outgoing, more ethical, overall a very attractive lady inside and out. My insecurities and peer influences all forces these "breaks" on our relationship, causing both of us some very rough heartache...

Here's the question: Can a relationship between us survive if we love each other enough? Will we both be able to look back on our past and say "that stage is over, now we know what we want lets form a successful, serious relationship"? or is the fact that we both hooked up with other people since we met each other going to always tarnish our love? We still love each other...deeply. Still friends, sex is amazing, we still do things together (right now not as a serious couple, but as a semi-couple/friends thing....).

I've grown out of alot of things (happy to say so), but I just hope it wasnt too late. Anybody have any experience with this?




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