Just do not belong in university

Well here's the deal -I don't drink and that makes me feel boring, or just makes me boring. For example I just saw my mates at another uni successfully complete the Milk Challenge, and I'm thinking 'why can't I do that?' I say it's 'cos I care about my health but it's more like I couldn't handle vomming everywhere, I'm a lightweight -My anxiety goes sky-high when I sleep terribly (I can't remember the last time I truly slept well or got to bed before midnight) and that makes me weak -I comfort-eat a lot so that makes me weak too -I get easily stressed by deadlines and stuff, by work in general BOOHOO -I am at a red-brick and I just think what the hell am I doing here? How the hell did I manage to get a scholarship? I don't fit in. I'm stupid, naive and a crybaby mummy's boy Seriously if you talk to me you would realise I am a fecking dunce. I have delayed emotional reactions ffs -I actually had to use a site-blocker program to stop myself procrastinating because I have no willpower to just not do it -I am secretly a pretentious know-it-all-****er who always used long words and stupid jargon to make himself seem better than everyone else when he didn't have a clue, and this is probably how I got into the red-brick -I am a virgin who spends most nights ****ing and yet has a girlfriend! What the hell! Can't help but think she's white-knighting me -I go to the gym and I'm a skinny ****. I can just see all the other guys laughing at me. Even when Iw as bigger and stronger still they were laughing at me. Hell even the coaches are laughing sometimes.. -I have this thing where if I think for too long I just get angry and scream and generally hate myself Well all this boils down to is I just do not belong in a student life which is essentially about manning up, getting **** done, not being such a stupid wuss about working and not getting sleep and hangovers blah blah and getting the **** over yourself and your problems. Which is, ironically, what being an adult is about I am going to get eaten alive by the real world hahaha So-has anyone else ever felt like this? Like they just were not cut for adult life? And how did they get pas it?

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