I have to come clean I have made a mistake!

I have posted on here about leaving my stuff at my ex girlfriends house for a year and that i have a new girlfriend. The reason I left mys tuff htere was because while we were broke up I was seeing this new girl but my heart has always been with y ex girlfriend. the girl Ihave been dating realized this 2 weeks ago and took a break from me. The reason my ex girlfriend showed up at my apt and the blow up ensued was because i was there with my current girlfriend whom I was breaking up with when my ex showed up. My ex girlfriend got mad and this incident hurt my ex girlfriend that i was i the process of reconciling with. I went to the girlfriends house last night that is taking the break from me. While at her house I realized in a huge way that i love my ex gorlfriend and I was trying to make my current girlfriend be my ex since I lost her. I realized that she will never be the woman my ex was and that i love my ex beyond beleif. I have made a terrible mistake. I never cheated on my ex and we were broke up for the past year but i always kept contact with my ex and i love my ex. When i left my girlfriends (who is taking a break) last night i realized that i have made a huge mistake and that my ex is who i love, want, need, and where my heart is . I an't help where my heart is. I went to see my ex this morning and she talked to me for an hour. She wouln't let me in her house but she stood in her door with her screen door open and i stood outside for an hour in 27 degree weather letting me taslk to her through her screen door. She kept talkig about the apt incident and how ive let her down etc. I really didn't ask my current girlfriend who wasn't really my currrent girlfriend cause we had broke up. I have hurt my ex beyound belief. I can't describe her in words how bad I feel and how i can't beleive i hurt my ex like this. I really can't beleive my ex even talked to me today. She then called me after i left and we talked and i ask her if she was seeing anyone and she said that she had met a nice guy and he seemed nice and was friendly like he r. I sstarted crying and told her how much i love her and she said i just met him and tehn she said did u think no one else wouln't want me? I told her she is perfect and yes she is the best and that guys would be crazy not to want her. She said there is nothig i can say or do but then when we talk she says why didn't i do this when that girl showed up at apt that night. I ask that girld to leave and she wouldn't and then my ex showed upa nd then this whole blow up happened. Before this blow up happened i was ficing things with my ex and was on the way to getting my relationship back with her. she let me keep my stuff there for a year cause she loved me and i left it there cause i wanted my ex back. I want my ex back and I love her with all my heart and then some. I have to come clean because I can't live this anymore. I screwed up and before the incident where she showed up at my apt we were on our way to fixing this. i wasn't not seeing that other girl for the past two months because I made my mnd up that i wanted my ex back and after the apt incident and my ex quit me I gravitated back to the other girl and she could tell my heart aint with her and that is why she said we needed to take a break. I need my ex back and I need to know how to fix this. I want and need your suggestions aand please don't be to negative because I can't take much more.

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