| My husband and I are going on 4 years. In a few months it will make 2 years married! He's the love of my life, the best thing that ever happened to me. He is truly my best friend!!! Before we married I've caught him speaking to females. This happened 3 times before we got married. "You're cute" / "my girl doesn't want me talking to you"/ & the last one a chick sent him a pic that he claimed was to his friend but it was to him. I gave him hell for all 3 indiscretions... He yelled, apologized, cried. We have a history. We were together when we were younger for about 3 years (high school) & I left him. I was young, scared, and didn't want him to cheat so I left. I always believed Men need to have their fun/ experience before settling down & after me he sure had that. Anyway, he claims after I left him he became a different man & basically I scarred him. When we reunited it was difficult bc he was always scared I would leave again. He claims that caused him to talk to those girls. He was fighting his inner demon & I believed him. Since we've been married he's been honest & faithful. Yes, I have snooped plenty of times, I've even accused him & lately I've been hurting him. I forgave him but I can't ever forget & I'm nervous it will happen again. He's never physically cheated but that's what I'm afraid of. His been so good to me, he's always there for me & still there are times I attack him bc those indiscretions haunt me!!!! I know I'm pushing him away & yet I still do it. A year ago we had a miscarriage & it truly broke me. I feel like I'm going crazy & the last thing I want to do is lose him. I think Love has made me crazy and obsessed!!!! :'( Any advice or coping techniques would be helpful. Thanks! | |||
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