Married 26 years. I had the affair and I regret everything.

Hello Everybody, I am 46 years old, 47 in May. I have been married for 26 years, three children 24, 21 and 18. All boys. I am Partner of a Law Firm and have been apart of the firm for 20 years now. Three weeks ago, I admitted to my Wife that I have been having an affair for the last 2 months with someone who is 14 years younger than myself. I can't forgive myself. I hate what I did. My kids won't even look at me and refuse to speak to me on the phone or even meet so I can apologise. My hurt so bad for my Wife and I am so so so sorry for what I did. I ask myself "How could I do such a thing to my family". I can't find the answer. I want to win my Wife back to the way we were 10 years ago. We have not had sex for 6 years and probably can admit that our marriage has been quite rocky for a while, every time I have approached the subject she doesn't want a bar of it and is not interested in being intimate with me. Stupidly I found intimacy elsewhere outside of the marriage and I need some guidance as to what to do. I want to be with her but I am wondering if she wants me. Perhaps she hasn't wanted me for the last 6 years. I struggle to think about reconciling and finding that we get nowhere and continue to live in an unhappy marriage. This whole situation has turned out to be so depressing.

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