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...weirdest thing...BPD?

So, my wife has a BPD diagnosis. Picture the usual problems. Remove dishonesty, but mix in unusually bad rages. And some indications (therapist) + Asperger's group of autistic tendencies. She's been in DBT for about a year and a half.

Something odd has been going on for the last few weeks.

She'd been under stress (bunch of random sources) - and dealing with some medication issues - but she started on antianxiety meds and ditched the stuff causing suicidal depression and extreme irritability...and her behavior changed.

...she started talking about 'waking up' and seeing reality.

So, the oddness:
(a) She's having increased sensory overload issues and is verbalizing when she's overloaded - coping using a hat.
(b) She's been pleasant to be around.
(c) When things go wrong - she's showing individual responsibility instead of blaming herself - and is open to rational explanations for events.
(d) Basically, aside from from some magical thinking, she's behaving like a sane, somewhat irresponsible and somewhat insecure human being with empathy and sensory issues.
(e) She's also actually seeking out socialization and trying to understand human beings. She's been talking about having taken off an imaginary cloth that keeps her isolated from the world.
(f) Oh, and she stopped overdosing on sleeping pills. (Not a big worry - apparently Benadryl is not a big health risk...checked with her psychiatrist.)

This is pleasant, but I'm a bit disconcerted with the suddenness of the change. I'm wondering if anyone else has seen something similar.

Option 1: BPDs swing back and forth a lot.
Definitely true. But, this behavior feels different from her normal white-painting.

Option 2: Maybe there's some change going on.
Could be the meds, could be her accepting that she has real autistic tendencies and not projecting those onto me. Could be something else.

Option 3: Bit of both.

Dunno - if you've seen anything similar and/or have any advice - I'd be grateful. I'm mostly in 'huh, nice if it lasts but no surprise if it doesn't' mode. No illusions that she's miraculously cured...but something seems different. Some of this behavior, I've never seen from her. Kind of a shift - she's acting more Aspie if anything, but much less unstable. Maybe she's hiding less?? Or maybe she's just trying really hard, and I should prepare for a gigantic meltdown?? Overall, if this goes on for a few month, I'll allow myself to feel mild hope.

--Argyle




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