My boyfriend has become violent towards me

This is so difficult for me to talk about. I don't think that anyone knows me on here though so I should be OK. My boyfriend has become violent towards me, and I don't know what to do. I know that it's not in his nature, but I don't know how to change him. He's been close with a really attractive girl in his office, and he knows how it gets to me, but he carries on being friends with her (it feels) just to spite me. I found a text on his phone where she'd asked him about an audit that was coming up, and he'd replied, and she'd put 'thank you, see you tomorrow xxx'. I mean, who puts 3 kisses after someone answers a question about an audit? I confronted him about it. This was the Facebook conversation: Quote: Me: I found that text from her. After you told me that nothing was going on, you lying piece of ****. Him: She said thank after I'd sorted something out for her about her about work. Nothing's going on. Me: Why the **** did she put 3 kisses then? Him: I don't know Me: Of course you know you lying ****. Stop belittling me. I know you're shagging her. I'm sick of people lying to me. Anthony said the same thing while he was seeing that freakshow. Him: What are you talking about? I've never even met up with her outside work. Me: Yeah but it's going to lead to that. What did I ever see in you? You went to a **** uni, got **** A-levels, and now think you're God's ****ing gift because you're on £23k. Well **** off. I'm done with you. And you can **** off the next time you want me to wash your skid-marked boxers or listen to your bull**** problems because I don't give a **** about you and I never have. No wonder Ellie cheated on you. 3 years? She'd have got less for ****ing burglary. (he went offline. To me that shows that he wasn't bothered about sorting out our issues.) He then didn't reply to my texts and so I went round to his house and shouted up to his window but he refused to come down and I held my finger on the doorbell for 4 minutes. When he answered we argued because he'd left me outside cold in the snow. I said that I didn't feel he cared enough from our Facebook conversation because he only gave really short replies to what I was saying. He then rubbed salt in it by bringing up that woman at work, and I called him a ****ing c word and picked up a paperweight and lifted it up to throw at him but he lashed out and shoved me onto the bed and I fell off it. I was so shaken up and I couldn't speak for a few minutes but I ran straight out of there. I don't want to seem like a battered girlfriend. I'm so embarrassed. I haven't told anyone. He's tried phoning me to say sorry but I can't bring myself to hear his voice. I sent him a text but it was really short and said 'oh **** off you piece of ****'. Should I speak to him again to end things properly to save myself from the prospect of an abusive relationship, or leave things here?

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