after a month of being back together, my husband and i just cannot seem to connect.
i posted a few months back about all that my husband had put me through and received some really uplifting and inspiring feedback. i am posting today because i went against everything and took him back.
since being taking him back, not one thing has changed. i had to practically beg this man to spend some kind of time with me. he is always out doing God knows what and all i do is go to work and come home. finally, he took me out to dinner and movie last Saturday. it felt awkward but ooooooohhhhh how i loved that so much. it didn't even have to be dinner and a movie. the fact that i was out with him doing anything sent me on a love high. too bad that feeling is short lived.
we have been married for 3 years and throughout our entire existence together it has been nothing but turmoil. anytime we would have a big fight it would result in him leaving. i must admit, that there have been times that i have asked him to leave but that was do to his infidelities. we would always find our way back to one another and when we do find our way back, it's like heaven. again, that is always short lived. we will be in marital bliss for about 5 days and then he all of a sudden checks out. i'm still all in trying to do every thing to keep that flame lit but he's just gone. and then when i stop trying, he tells me that i'm acting shady. i'm so confused with all of this and honesty, i feel like he can still be cheating because he is so secretive with his phone. he knows that i don't like that at all but he still does it. i mean, when we are home he turns the ringer off but it's on when i'm not around. when he takes a shower it goes in the shower with him. la st night i realized it was ringing because i saw the glare from it on the ceiling. i said to him, "your phone is ringing" and he replied with, 'you and this damn phone!!" but he never answered it.
i'm just so tired of trying, tired of fighting and tired of talking about the same thing over and over again? nothing is changing and he seems to blame me for everything. he doesn't want to go to counseling and i just can't seem to convince him that he has some underlying issues that he needs to deal with.
i posted a few months back about all that my husband had put me through and received some really uplifting and inspiring feedback. i am posting today because i went against everything and took him back.
since being taking him back, not one thing has changed. i had to practically beg this man to spend some kind of time with me. he is always out doing God knows what and all i do is go to work and come home. finally, he took me out to dinner and movie last Saturday. it felt awkward but ooooooohhhhh how i loved that so much. it didn't even have to be dinner and a movie. the fact that i was out with him doing anything sent me on a love high. too bad that feeling is short lived.
we have been married for 3 years and throughout our entire existence together it has been nothing but turmoil. anytime we would have a big fight it would result in him leaving. i must admit, that there have been times that i have asked him to leave but that was do to his infidelities. we would always find our way back to one another and when we do find our way back, it's like heaven. again, that is always short lived. we will be in marital bliss for about 5 days and then he all of a sudden checks out. i'm still all in trying to do every thing to keep that flame lit but he's just gone. and then when i stop trying, he tells me that i'm acting shady. i'm so confused with all of this and honesty, i feel like he can still be cheating because he is so secretive with his phone. he knows that i don't like that at all but he still does it. i mean, when we are home he turns the ringer off but it's on when i'm not around. when he takes a shower it goes in the shower with him. la st night i realized it was ringing because i saw the glare from it on the ceiling. i said to him, "your phone is ringing" and he replied with, 'you and this damn phone!!" but he never answered it.
i'm just so tired of trying, tired of fighting and tired of talking about the same thing over and over again? nothing is changing and he seems to blame me for everything. he doesn't want to go to counseling and i just can't seem to convince him that he has some underlying issues that he needs to deal with.
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