Little backstory. Been here since May of 2010 when I caught my wife in an affair. Tried reconciliation until she moved out in August last year. I filed for divorce in December. We even tried to reconcile on and off throughout the separation. Divorce is still in motion has never stopped since I filed. Since May of 2010 when she got busted I never felt she was sorry for what she did to me and my 2 daughters. Only sorry for getting caught.
Present: Anyways, She sends me these texts all the time about her guilt and everytime she admits what she did wrong and why how we got to where we are, blah blah blah which are all the right answers. Answers I have been looking for since R in May 2010.
But when we try and mend things up, she immediately turns back to who she really is. An adulterous wh*re. Lashing out at me. Everything is my fault all over again. She knows the right things to do but she refuses to put in that work. She puts more work in protecting her adulterous relationships then she does protecting her own family.
Believe me I know what needs to be done and that is what is happening. But this personality and her actions absolutely boggles my mind. I just cannot fathom knowing how she does what she does much less do these things to people. I couldn't do the sh*t she does to a complete stranger much less someone I am supposed to care about.
What kind of person is this? My gawd the last few days have driven me crazy. I really needed to rant and this felt really good to type out. I would really love to block her number but that's impossible with 16 and almost 12 yr old daughters. Whom are really resilient I might add. They see everything their mother does. And she thinks they don't know anything. It really boggles my mind as to what reality she lives in.
Present: Anyways, She sends me these texts all the time about her guilt and everytime she admits what she did wrong and why how we got to where we are, blah blah blah which are all the right answers. Answers I have been looking for since R in May 2010.
But when we try and mend things up, she immediately turns back to who she really is. An adulterous wh*re. Lashing out at me. Everything is my fault all over again. She knows the right things to do but she refuses to put in that work. She puts more work in protecting her adulterous relationships then she does protecting her own family.
Believe me I know what needs to be done and that is what is happening. But this personality and her actions absolutely boggles my mind. I just cannot fathom knowing how she does what she does much less do these things to people. I couldn't do the sh*t she does to a complete stranger much less someone I am supposed to care about.
What kind of person is this? My gawd the last few days have driven me crazy. I really needed to rant and this felt really good to type out. I would really love to block her number but that's impossible with 16 and almost 12 yr old daughters. Whom are really resilient I might add. They see everything their mother does. And she thinks they don't know anything. It really boggles my mind as to what reality she lives in.
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