I value this forum and want people's feedback on my situation. I'm a physician whose been married and in a mutually faithful marriage, producing 2 good kids (of course- ha ha) and a few decent memories along the way. My wife, who is a lawyer by training (but never practice) has been a stay-at-home with what I consider so-so parenting instincts and abilities, but of course that's life.
What I've realized, over the last few years and especially the last two, is that I don't care for being around my wife, really desire her affection, and don't love her in any marital way. I don't want to see her sad and we don't fight. I'd use a cliche to say "we've grown apart" but I think the marriage was always somewhat aberrant and more like a mild friendship with sex rather than what you'd consider a good marriage. It was easy to suppress this knowledge when my kids were younger and I immersed myself in them, but now the youngest is 13 and I have developed major anxiety and depression over a marital situation that gives me no hope for a satisfying future. I don't think my wife is thrilled, but I think she's satisfied enough.
Does ANYBODY have this experience? Two faithful partners simply living distant parallel tracks? What did you do?
What I've realized, over the last few years and especially the last two, is that I don't care for being around my wife, really desire her affection, and don't love her in any marital way. I don't want to see her sad and we don't fight. I'd use a cliche to say "we've grown apart" but I think the marriage was always somewhat aberrant and more like a mild friendship with sex rather than what you'd consider a good marriage. It was easy to suppress this knowledge when my kids were younger and I immersed myself in them, but now the youngest is 13 and I have developed major anxiety and depression over a marital situation that gives me no hope for a satisfying future. I don't think my wife is thrilled, but I think she's satisfied enough.
Does ANYBODY have this experience? Two faithful partners simply living distant parallel tracks? What did you do?
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