how do i get over this

I am about to marry what i thought was an amazing man. he is loving and caring and kind. an wonderful father to our 2 children and a great provider. he does anything and everything for us and always strives to make me happy. 2 nights ago i found an email on his computer. he was scheduling a meet up with a escort. not just any escort, but a tg escort. in the email it stated that he tried it before but it didnt turn out well. he ended up canceling the meeting. he has come totally clean about everything and wil answer any question i have. he said hes always wanted to try it, and that he wanted to do it before we got married. that he didnt like it and didnt want to try it anymore. he also before i found out stopped with the porn and online sex and whatever else he was doing. i knew he watched porn alot while he was deployed and while we are living in different states (work reasons) but i didnt know it was a problem. i know he feels terrible about it. and wants to do anything to fix it. but i dont know how he can. i dont know how to get over it r move on or even look at him without thinking of someone else on him.

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