| Hey everyone....I've been reading posts here for several months and have really related to many of the posts. I'd like to tell my story now. I'm typing on my phone so I apologize in advance for grammatical and spelling errors. H had an affair in 2010. Our second child was not even a year old. Affair went on for 9 months when he confessed. I'd had my suspicions...I agreed to give him a second chance. We have two children...6 and 4 now....I had a really hard time with everything but by summer 2012 I had made progress....fall of 2012....he confesses that the oc had gotten pregnant right before he ended affair....he was just now telling me that this one year old existed. Boy talk about total regression on my part... I was floored! He told me that he did on occasion see this child. That he did not know how much he wanted to play in oc's life....I shoulda just taken a separation then but chose to try to work it out because at the time it seemed doable to me (i know)... Fast forward to now and its unimaginable. He spends just about every other evening with oc. Sometimes picking her up multiple days in a row. I have not met oc nor have our children. He cannot bring her to our home...based on his choice...so he supposedly picks up oc and takes her to parks....out to eat...etc. there is no filed visitation or cs in place. He's pretty much leading two different lives. One with us and one with oc. I suspect he and ow are seeing each other again. At the very least good friends...yes I have pleaded with him about how I don't like it how it makes me feel insecure but he doesn't seem to care because nothing changes. I don't know what to believe anymore because of all the lies. I'm sure he picks oc more than he tells me and contributes more than he tells me. He gets defensive when I ask him anything . He says he chooses not to tell me much because all it does is make me moody...like who wouldn't? It seems like he's always hiding something. I'm not sure how much more pain I can take! My anxiety is awful. I'm always thinking about it it seems. I'm emotionally drained. I don't like feeling this way...always guarded ...always wondering... Posted via Mobile Device | |||
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