| Ok, so here it goes. My girlfriend and I have been together for 10 years, we have two little boys (8 and 5) and we have a home. Throughout our relationship we have been best friends, I worship her and give her all of my love and for the longest time other than me wanting to cuddle and have sex more she has always been kind of more interested in not doing that stuff. We have had a troubles financial past and she has stuck with it up until today when she told me something is missing from her life, we went through something similar about 6 months ago and got through it after we got to the point of finding out she felt she was taking care of me like our boys and that it didn't feel like a relationship. When I became more of a "man" things got better, great even, we were cuddling, having sex and getting along almost like we just met and since then things have been great with some boring stuff in there as well. About two months ago when everything was g oing good I was laid off from work and she is doing a school course from home so we have less money and all day together. We do not have any other friends and the odd time she goes out with an old friend or her sisters for the day she comes back in an amazing mood. But unfortunately it feels as if she gets back to her every day stay at home normal life and it bothers her. She says she loves me and that I am her best friend, I have never cheated on her, neglected her, yelled at her or even done anything that would cause any problems yet I still cannot get our relationship fixed after thinking it was already. I am convinced she is bored with her life, we have no money to do things, we have bills and have to borrow money sometimes and we don't go out anywhere and I think this is a big part of it and I want to do nothing more but work on it. This time next year I am hoping to be in the military and she will be working at a new career, we will have money and time apart but I cant convince her to stick with it. She wants to be friends and see other people but I don't think it will fix her problem and am afraid it will ruin things forever between us. Help me please, this hurts more than I can describe. She is at her aunts house and I am here at home with our kids (i begged her to let me keep them with me) but every time i look at her dresser or our meal we had prepared for later I break down. It just hit me so fast I cant think or feel or function. |
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