I need an answer from God

I am in a situation and don't know to do. I have been married to my husband for 15 years. We have 4 children (ages 14, 13, 11 & 9). I have only been happy for about 2 years of the marriage. I felt we were not compatible when we got married, but I went forward with it because I wanted to be married—I wanted a family and wanted to do it the right way. I am a firm believer that God honors marriage. I thought I could learn and grow to love him. Our incompatibility has gotten worst over the years. He disrespects me and treats me like I'm an object. We have grown so far apart, but we still live under the same roof. He doesn't share in my goals and life values and vice versa. I suggested counseling years ago but he never saw a problem and said no need for counseling. He has a good relationship with our children. He has always been a better father than husband. Two years ago, I learned of a 3 year affair that he was having with our children's piano teacher. He apologized for the infidelity and tried to return to the marriage and I let him because of my financial reasons, but now I have very good reason to believe that he is being unfaithful again. I recently started sleeping in another bedroom. I want to leave so bad but again, I don't earn enough money to comfortably live on my own. Six months ago, I bumped into my high school sweetheart while in the grocery store. We talked for a long long time and then exchanged numbers. We have talked on the phone plenty of times, but have never met up for a date or anything because I am married. My high school sweet heart and I have so much in common. We didn't break up by choice it was by force. His family relocated to another state. Being 15 and in a long distant relationship just didn't work for us so we lost touch. We share the same goals, dreams and aspirations. He was once married but now divorced. I often think that he and I should have another chance at love, but everything is so complicated right now. I know he cares for me. We are good friends. I care for him also. I feel so stuck and I believe emotionally it's getting the best of me. It's not that simple to leave and I often think of how it would affect the children. I want the stability that our children have to remain. They are use to having a mom and dad under the same roof. I believe that God wants me to be happy and right now I am very unhappy in this marriage. I keep asking God for direction in this situation, but seems the answers never come and I really do feel stuck. I lay awake often at night and cry. I'm often depressed because I feel like an object to my husband and not the woman he should love and cherish. I've done all in my power to make things right in spite of the negative things that have happened in our marriage. He disrespects me repeatedly and uses the B word to address me in front of our children. Please give me some words of wisdom. I really really need a break through in this situation. Thank you.

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