I wouldn't say that I have had a "good" dating life since my divorce...or even before...but I just realized I just really don't want to deal with it anymore. Don't take this as suicidal either. I am not happy about it but I really love the whole being alive thing.
I guess it could be the fact that I am busy with work and don't have much free time but I've also been stood up more times that I care to count. I've also been turned down for what I think are some of the most petty reasons ever. Meeting in person, friends trying to hook me up, girls from church, and online dating have gone nowhere except for maybe a second date once or twice.
Now I just really find myself not caring. Like, I was at a friends wedding a few hour ago and which I don't really like being alone I just refused to dance with anyone. I was socializing with my friends just fine but the couple times when females approached me I couldn't go beyond a blank stare.
I used to be looking for a future wife and kids to fill my house but my mind just blanks out when the prospect of putting work into a relationship comes up. I mean, I still would love a wife and kids but...I don't really know what to call it but I guess I don't feel like putting effort into something that has a high probability of failure?
I guess it could be the fact that I am busy with work and don't have much free time but I've also been stood up more times that I care to count. I've also been turned down for what I think are some of the most petty reasons ever. Meeting in person, friends trying to hook me up, girls from church, and online dating have gone nowhere except for maybe a second date once or twice.
Now I just really find myself not caring. Like, I was at a friends wedding a few hour ago and which I don't really like being alone I just refused to dance with anyone. I was socializing with my friends just fine but the couple times when females approached me I couldn't go beyond a blank stare.
I used to be looking for a future wife and kids to fill my house but my mind just blanks out when the prospect of putting work into a relationship comes up. I mean, I still would love a wife and kids but...I don't really know what to call it but I guess I don't feel like putting effort into something that has a high probability of failure?
Put the internet to work for you.
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