First of all, I do believe masturbation is totally normal and even a healthy option for some people and situations!...
Last night I put the baby to sleep and then went to bed early. My husband stay in the living room watching TV. After an hour and a half I woke up thirsty, on my way to the kitchen I noticed my husband was watching a video on his phone, as I got closer I realized he was masturbating to a porn video. I called his name, he stop and looked at me all surprised and then he said "you were sleeping" and I just stood there paralyzed for a minute or so, then walked away in tears. I was socked, this was the first time I saw my husband masturbating in our 3 years of marriage. He followed me trying to explain and I just locked myself in the bathroom trying to understand what it just happened. When I walked out he was waiting for me and told me, "I'm sorry, is a problem I have, I like touching myself and I haven't stop since I was a teenager" and I told him "I don't want to talk about it right now, I cant think, I'm so confused, just leave me alone" and so he did. This morning he left a no te saying he is deeply sorry and ashamed, he never wanted to hurt me and confused me, that he love me and it wont happened again...
I haven't answered his calls all day, I don't know what to say. I know is not like he was cheating on me but I truly believe our sex life was something great we had, since we are very sexual and passionate . Even during pregnancy the longest was about a week without sex. I'm so confused. I feel so miserable, knowing that all these years he was masturbating behind my back even when I ask him and he simply lie about it. As a woman I feel so little, all I can think is "I can't satisfy my husband and all this time I thought I did". Why do I feel so grossed out and humiliated? I really don't know how to handle this. I would understand his behavior when I'm on my period, or out of town, or upset with each other but, We had sex yesterday morning and still he wanted to masturbate at night instead of being with me. How can I trust him, when I feel that I'm not good enough? Please I need help, I need advise!!!:confused::(
Last night I put the baby to sleep and then went to bed early. My husband stay in the living room watching TV. After an hour and a half I woke up thirsty, on my way to the kitchen I noticed my husband was watching a video on his phone, as I got closer I realized he was masturbating to a porn video. I called his name, he stop and looked at me all surprised and then he said "you were sleeping" and I just stood there paralyzed for a minute or so, then walked away in tears. I was socked, this was the first time I saw my husband masturbating in our 3 years of marriage. He followed me trying to explain and I just locked myself in the bathroom trying to understand what it just happened. When I walked out he was waiting for me and told me, "I'm sorry, is a problem I have, I like touching myself and I haven't stop since I was a teenager" and I told him "I don't want to talk about it right now, I cant think, I'm so confused, just leave me alone" and so he did. This morning he left a no te saying he is deeply sorry and ashamed, he never wanted to hurt me and confused me, that he love me and it wont happened again...
I haven't answered his calls all day, I don't know what to say. I know is not like he was cheating on me but I truly believe our sex life was something great we had, since we are very sexual and passionate . Even during pregnancy the longest was about a week without sex. I'm so confused. I feel so miserable, knowing that all these years he was masturbating behind my back even when I ask him and he simply lie about it. As a woman I feel so little, all I can think is "I can't satisfy my husband and all this time I thought I did". Why do I feel so grossed out and humiliated? I really don't know how to handle this. I would understand his behavior when I'm on my period, or out of town, or upset with each other but, We had sex yesterday morning and still he wanted to masturbate at night instead of being with me. How can I trust him, when I feel that I'm not good enough? Please I need help, I need advise!!!:confused::(
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