I've been married for almost three years now and I'm just not happy. We've had our up's and downs, and know there are suppose to be some hurdles. But I can't help but feel like nothing has helped. My husband got a job in a new state a few months ago and I currently stay with my sister until he's finished training. He's talking about reuniting in a few weeks and the entire time we've been apart I've never felt so relaxed and less stressed even while taking care our two year old. Relatives are always commenting saying I can't wait to see him that we will end up with baby number 2 and it upsets me because its not true. He says he misses me but I don't miss him one bit. He cried when we said our temp goodbyes, I didn't shed a tear and went on with life. Prior to his new job we fought a great deal about lil things here and there like opening the front door without acknowledging who it is, dirty clothes thrown all over the place, gun in box on floor by front door not put away, dishes a food left all over the house, toilet paper rolls and used q tips on the bathroom floor and many other things. I'm a stay at home mom and he works 12 hour shifts 5 days a week and some overtime. So he gets home late and the only time we can talk is like between 7 and 8pm because the lil one goes to sleep at 8:30. One day he told me to stop talking he needed sometime to unwind so I've stopped talking to him he plays on his phone a lot so I do other things like tend to the baby. There are a lot of unresolved problems I use to try and talk about the problems because I don't like unresolved issues but I'm always the one putting in effort to fix it if I don't bring it up it won't come up or he'll say I don't wanna talk about it. There is a major disconnect with us and he is blind and cannot see it. I mentioned counseling and he's like sure but I don't see why we need it...I've told him my concerns tried being nice about and not so nice about i t and tells me I don't really feel that way. I recently had a male friend invite me to dinner for I moved and my husband was concerned and saying I was going to do something. I told him you have trust issues that you need to work out. I didn't end up going, but yesterday he tells me of a female coworker of his that he's friends with and is upset that they don't have the same shift cause they could hang out at the shooting range and I told him I wouldn't be going and he laughed and said in you can't come. I'm not sure if he's using the lady to get back at me about my friend or what. He volunteered to babysit her son at her house while she's sleeping. The whole thing seems kinda weird since he didn't call me one day and both of his phone were off and he claimed he was sooo tired he got in bed and accidentally fell asleep and didn't call or leave a text message because it was late. I'm kinda upset that he's babysitting someone's kid so she can get some sleep he never did anything like that when I had the baby. He'd come home get on his phone for hours not playing with our son I had to ask him to put the phone down he seldom changes diapers. Sorry this is all long I just don't know anymore..
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