Hi Everyone,
Just to put it briefly i have been with my boyfriend for soon approaching a year in a few months. He's my first proper boyfriend and we knew each other when i was much younger. We lost contact and we fell in love last Summer. Over the months i have just fell more and more in love with him. The thought of me being away from him or not being with him just brings tears to my face and i often get upset at the thought of losing him. He is literally the male version of me, we share so much in common and he makes me so happy!
However my anxiety levels have got worse over the past few months and i get anxious over him going out or when we go out. I get afraid he will realise there is much better girls out there than me, which there is! I hardly go out, i do not have a great deal of friends or social life and spend most of my days in my room studying or something else (apart if i go out or spend time with my boyfriend). I have told him many times and he reassures me everything is fine and i should not worry. I can imagine i can be quite draining at times and i accept that. That's why i am writing this, i want to change. But my mind just will not stop. I just look at everyone else who is normal and can go on holidays, go drinking out with friends and be confident and i suffer from anxiety so bad that i had to get a plan home early from a holiday trip with my dad once because i hated being away from home. Terrible, i know!
How can i just be confident and have a healthy mind before i push him away?
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I really appreciate it
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