My dad isn't great with technology, and asks me to set his alarm on his phone sometimes or text one of his employees.
Anyways, while doing so, the word "escort" in one of his texts caught my eye. One of his coworkers gave him the link as my father asked. He's been working away from home these past few weeks, and the link was specifically for escorts in that area. I checked his browser history hoping it wasn't true, but the evidence was all there - his history consisted of him browsing a list of escorts in that area. Definitely not one of those pop ups. At first, I just hoped he was curious and let it slide. Then today, he came back from work again, and I couldn't help myself as I was PRAYING that it was a one time thing and he didn't act on it. Nope. Texts, browsing history, and I even checked his call log to see if any numbers matched those of the escorts on the site. Indeed they did. I feel heartbroken right now, and feel like I'm carrying one of the most heartwrenching secrets right now.
I'm 19 years old, and my mother has been a bit suspecting recently. When he's come home, she tells him "you seem a bit too happy" as if she suspects it but has no proof. Last week my father asked my mom to buy new underwear (LOL), and my mom came up to me jokingly saying "hmmm, a bit odd that he's asking this when he's away from home for work". The funny thing is, when my dad came home today from his job he was acting all loving towards my mom, more than usual...to the point where they slowdanced in the kitchen. I watched for a few seconds awkwardly, not knowing what to feel but disgust.
She has no idea it's true. I know this for a fact, and I know if I told her this, she would be HEARTBROKEN. She's depressed as it is because my sister and I are both moving to Europe for university this summer for 3 years and she goes on about how she'll be all alone as my father is constantly working.
I can't bring myself to tell her, and I love my dad, but confronting him about this would be WAY too awkward and he would just deny it calling me silly.
One of my mother's close friends' husband cheated on her, and I remember my mom going on about how if my father ever cheated on her, she would leave him the moment she found out.
I don't know what to do. I'm so conflicted, and I don't want to tell my sister about it as I don't want to get her involved. She's only two years younger than me, but I don't want her thinking any less of my dad like I do (I can't help it).
I'm so scared. Like I said, my mother has been through bouts of depression recently, and in the past has been suicidal. I'm SO afraid at what something like this will do to her mental state. I can't deal with this burden, but I also don't want to be the person my dad resents or my mother for giving her the news.
Anyways, while doing so, the word "escort" in one of his texts caught my eye. One of his coworkers gave him the link as my father asked. He's been working away from home these past few weeks, and the link was specifically for escorts in that area. I checked his browser history hoping it wasn't true, but the evidence was all there - his history consisted of him browsing a list of escorts in that area. Definitely not one of those pop ups. At first, I just hoped he was curious and let it slide. Then today, he came back from work again, and I couldn't help myself as I was PRAYING that it was a one time thing and he didn't act on it. Nope. Texts, browsing history, and I even checked his call log to see if any numbers matched those of the escorts on the site. Indeed they did. I feel heartbroken right now, and feel like I'm carrying one of the most heartwrenching secrets right now.
I'm 19 years old, and my mother has been a bit suspecting recently. When he's come home, she tells him "you seem a bit too happy" as if she suspects it but has no proof. Last week my father asked my mom to buy new underwear (LOL), and my mom came up to me jokingly saying "hmmm, a bit odd that he's asking this when he's away from home for work". The funny thing is, when my dad came home today from his job he was acting all loving towards my mom, more than usual...to the point where they slowdanced in the kitchen. I watched for a few seconds awkwardly, not knowing what to feel but disgust.
She has no idea it's true. I know this for a fact, and I know if I told her this, she would be HEARTBROKEN. She's depressed as it is because my sister and I are both moving to Europe for university this summer for 3 years and she goes on about how she'll be all alone as my father is constantly working.
I can't bring myself to tell her, and I love my dad, but confronting him about this would be WAY too awkward and he would just deny it calling me silly.
One of my mother's close friends' husband cheated on her, and I remember my mom going on about how if my father ever cheated on her, she would leave him the moment she found out.
I don't know what to do. I'm so conflicted, and I don't want to tell my sister about it as I don't want to get her involved. She's only two years younger than me, but I don't want her thinking any less of my dad like I do (I can't help it).
I'm so scared. Like I said, my mother has been through bouts of depression recently, and in the past has been suicidal. I'm SO afraid at what something like this will do to her mental state. I can't deal with this burden, but I also don't want to be the person my dad resents or my mother for giving her the news.
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