I don't want pity or judgement, I just want to vent it out and maybe get advice if anyone's willing. I'm 17, and I know that's really young but I don't think I'm ever going to find love. I met a guy twice when I was 15 and despite the long distance we stayed in touch and admitted that we both loved each other and got really close but then we just... drifted apart. I gave him a pretty tough time and clung on to him, even though he ignored me so after having my first real heartbreak, I gave up on him. Eventually I told him that I'm pan and trans and he was totally cool with it, but we don't talk at all anymore, even though we're "friends". Well I've had a girlfriend since then, and it was my second failed "relationship". (I have two exes). And my longest relationship was 7 weeks.
Now I really love a gay guy, (who is happy to be friends with a pan trans guy), but he's never seen me physically as a guy, (I'm pre-op trans), so may never love me back. And he's now got a boyfriend so I'm screwed again.
So with a doomed love life, a due coming out and exams, along with an uncertain future, I think I might just give up on love. I've been countlessly rejected, ignored, accused of cheating and screwed with other relationships so what the **** is the point? Forever alone must be the meme of my life. :/
What do I do? What do I actually do?
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