Need advice, and I really don't think I can post this publicly lol...
Basically, theres this girl that's sorta like my best mate. Honestly? I got extreme trust issues coz i've been let down a lot by people I got let down by, but this girl... I honestly trust her and she knows me better than most people know me.
The thing is, recently, i've been through a lot of ****. And emotionally, i'm ruined. It's got to the point i'm extremely suicidal - like, because I talk to her, some people (i.e. her ex apparently...) can't accept that and are trying to ruin me and it's sorta worked lol... Like emotionally? I amn't there. But then, through all this I didn't really want to tell her because she would feel like crap. It's been happening since November, and recently she did find out because I snapped and started taking drugs/drinking/cutting to get the pain away. On top of it... I've sorta dropped out of uni coz it's getting unbearable and i'm at the point where I keep crying.
What's getting to me is that she won't really open up, but I wanna know what was said, and her ex said nasty things, and I just wanna know the truth. But when I ask, she just cut's me off, and blocks me on whatsapp/calling and I dunno... Like, what do I do?
Does that mean I walk away? or because I genuinely like her, does it mean I still try and talk to her about my concerns? But she's not having any of it, and it's gonna be a huge struggle....
Basically, theres this girl that's sorta like my best mate. Honestly? I got extreme trust issues coz i've been let down a lot by people I got let down by, but this girl... I honestly trust her and she knows me better than most people know me.
The thing is, recently, i've been through a lot of ****. And emotionally, i'm ruined. It's got to the point i'm extremely suicidal - like, because I talk to her, some people (i.e. her ex apparently...) can't accept that and are trying to ruin me and it's sorta worked lol... Like emotionally? I amn't there. But then, through all this I didn't really want to tell her because she would feel like crap. It's been happening since November, and recently she did find out because I snapped and started taking drugs/drinking/cutting to get the pain away. On top of it... I've sorta dropped out of uni coz it's getting unbearable and i'm at the point where I keep crying.
What's getting to me is that she won't really open up, but I wanna know what was said, and her ex said nasty things, and I just wanna know the truth. But when I ask, she just cut's me off, and blocks me on whatsapp/calling and I dunno... Like, what do I do?
Does that mean I walk away? or because I genuinely like her, does it mean I still try and talk to her about my concerns? But she's not having any of it, and it's gonna be a huge struggle....
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