Okay, so basically I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years. I am 20, he's 21. I feel like we've grown apart but I can't break up with him because I think I love him.. It was close last week, we were about to split, there and then. It was what I had always wanted for these past 6 months or so but I just couldn't do it, I burst into tears, I didn't want us to end.
But I'm so confused! I love him, but I want to see other people and all the times in the past where I have gained attention from other guys I've brushed it off; but not Monday night... After going out with friends the night ended with just two of us left, we were in the smoking area and starting chatting to these two guys. My friend, being single, was perfectly happy but I had apprehensions. To cut a long story short this guy ended up walking me home and, well you can most probably guess what happened.
I woke the next morning and my instant reaction was "****, what have I just done?" but on the other hand I felt no guilt at all.. It was strange.
Anyway, the sex was ****, and I feel like I've got out what I needed to get out of my system. But do I tell my boyfriend? It would crush him and he is going through a really hard time at the moment with him family, so I don't want to be the bitch who broke his heart when it needed holding.
But I'm so confused! I love him, but I want to see other people and all the times in the past where I have gained attention from other guys I've brushed it off; but not Monday night... After going out with friends the night ended with just two of us left, we were in the smoking area and starting chatting to these two guys. My friend, being single, was perfectly happy but I had apprehensions. To cut a long story short this guy ended up walking me home and, well you can most probably guess what happened.
I woke the next morning and my instant reaction was "****, what have I just done?" but on the other hand I felt no guilt at all.. It was strange.
Anyway, the sex was ****, and I feel like I've got out what I needed to get out of my system. But do I tell my boyfriend? It would crush him and he is going through a really hard time at the moment with him family, so I don't want to be the bitch who broke his heart when it needed holding.
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