I've been separated over a year and have been dating here and there. I have recently started playing in a couple bands again - doing gigs here and there. The opportunities are there to hook up, no doubt.
A couple weeks ago, we played this show and afterwards this very hot gal and I started flirting. The drummer apparently had the hots for her too as he came up and started flirting with her as well. I'm, 38, he's 26. We're buddies and I didn't get too bent out of shape - it was like a friendly competition thing. He's far more alpha and aggressive than I am, and I'm still dealing with some emotional baggage from having my stbxw cheat on me (I am divorcing her).
This woman was obviously loving the attention from the 2 guys in the band. We ended up all going back to his place, where the drinking and carrying on continued. He and I went for a smoke and I said "you know where this is going, right?" We all ended up on the couch - her in the middle. He made a move and they end up making out. Eventually he kind of "passes her off" to me and we both end up stripping her down and going down on her, etc.
Eventually she ends up giving him head, and he throws me a condom. He then proceeds to have sex with her, then says "I think you should suck off my friend". I am a guy who has some performance anxiety at the best of times since the split, and I was so nervous/adrenaline pumping that I was not aroused. She sucked me off for a bit, but eventually I gave up and left the 2 of them alone. He proceeded to bang the hell out of her for an hour or so. I went to his bedroom feeling dejected and humiliated.
Honestly I enjoy the occasional MFM porn - but I simply could not get it up for this. I was very disappointed. She was talking very dirty the entire time, like over the top, contrived bad porn acting. That didn't help. I feel like I wasted the opportunity, as this was a fantasy. At the same time it was so weird and kind of gross - having my buddy's giant schlong waved in my face when I couldn't get wood.
The next day he asked me "dude, are we still friends??". LOL. That was funny.
I don't have any real point to this story - maybe to ask if anyone else has had this experience, and were you able to perform? Would you have trouble performing if you were in that situation? Would you ever BE in that situation? Is it hot? Disgusting?
Any tips for performance anxiety? I have a weekend NYE getaway with a gal tomorrow night and I'm worried about performing now.
I hate that those damn things are so moody and just don't work some of the time.
A couple weeks ago, we played this show and afterwards this very hot gal and I started flirting. The drummer apparently had the hots for her too as he came up and started flirting with her as well. I'm, 38, he's 26. We're buddies and I didn't get too bent out of shape - it was like a friendly competition thing. He's far more alpha and aggressive than I am, and I'm still dealing with some emotional baggage from having my stbxw cheat on me (I am divorcing her).
This woman was obviously loving the attention from the 2 guys in the band. We ended up all going back to his place, where the drinking and carrying on continued. He and I went for a smoke and I said "you know where this is going, right?" We all ended up on the couch - her in the middle. He made a move and they end up making out. Eventually he kind of "passes her off" to me and we both end up stripping her down and going down on her, etc.
Eventually she ends up giving him head, and he throws me a condom. He then proceeds to have sex with her, then says "I think you should suck off my friend". I am a guy who has some performance anxiety at the best of times since the split, and I was so nervous/adrenaline pumping that I was not aroused. She sucked me off for a bit, but eventually I gave up and left the 2 of them alone. He proceeded to bang the hell out of her for an hour or so. I went to his bedroom feeling dejected and humiliated.
Honestly I enjoy the occasional MFM porn - but I simply could not get it up for this. I was very disappointed. She was talking very dirty the entire time, like over the top, contrived bad porn acting. That didn't help. I feel like I wasted the opportunity, as this was a fantasy. At the same time it was so weird and kind of gross - having my buddy's giant schlong waved in my face when I couldn't get wood.
The next day he asked me "dude, are we still friends??". LOL. That was funny.
I don't have any real point to this story - maybe to ask if anyone else has had this experience, and were you able to perform? Would you have trouble performing if you were in that situation? Would you ever BE in that situation? Is it hot? Disgusting?
Any tips for performance anxiety? I have a weekend NYE getaway with a gal tomorrow night and I'm worried about performing now.
I hate that those damn things are so moody and just don't work some of the time.
Put the internet to work for you.
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