Almost D-day, rejoice or mourn?

I'm almost to the deadline of one year separation. At that point i can file my divorce. so why do i feel like i have cold feet? why do i hesitate and start to question myself? i have looked at my problem from every angle, researched solutions and attend MC twice. so is it just me? please share your d-day experience..thanks.

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