| I love my guy so much & I do not want to cheat! But why oh why does he ALWAYS have to leave me hanging lately! Please ..... I know many of you have been through so much .. I really won't ever cheat. Trust me .. I've been through much worse myself .. A dumb title but I had that thought for about 1.1 seconds while he's snoring & I'm still laying there horny as hell. AGAIN! I've been lurking here awhile! And I've got a divorce story that will just about beat all which I will share at some point. But right now I just need to vent :) ..... My finance & I have been together almost 2 years. I have learned sooooo very much from this site & have spent quite a bit of time here :-/ I am just sooooooo sexually frustrated! A bit of background ... fiance & I dated 20 + years ago .. He and I were actually each others "1 st" way back when, highschool sweethearts! We reunited after my divorce. My past marriage of 14 yrs was basically sexless ..his choice not mine! I knew I could NEVER go through that again. And to be quite honest I learned ALOT about my body & sexuality in the months following our divorce. Nothing like learning to take care of yourself after all those years lol ..... Now I met up w/ my old ex-flame ... He is VERY sexual .. Right up my alley .. or so it seems for the 1st year or so. Here's my problem ... My man loves sex .. yeah finally. Because I am very HD. I thought wow we are so compatible in that department! .... But OMG not anymore ... yeah he likes sex, but no longer cares about satisfying me anymore. In the past he would spend time exploring my body, making sure to hit all the sweet spots .. making sure I "got mine." Now a days ... its a wham bam thank you mam ... Over & over! I don't mind those "sometimes" .. And I don't have to have "mine" all the time .... But dang it .. Atleast 1 out of 10 times would be nice! We've had sex 6 out of 7 days this past week and I have yet to get an "O" from it. He has totally forgotten what foreplay is all about. It's more like touch here .. touch there & stick it in. I can "O" from boob & fingers alone, throw in oral & it's a given ...but he's forgotten what those are. Or if I'm lucky he'll spend 10 seconds on each & think that's good enough. Lack of foreplay I might could deal sometimes BUT he doesn't last but 5 min tops before he's done. And once he's done .... That's it!! Doesn't even try anymore to do anything for me after. Today for example ... We sext a little throughout the day. He gets me going pretty good. I'm soooo tempted to "take care of myself" today but decide I really want to save it for him. Well what good that did! The time comes & he hops on after maybe 2 min of foreplay ... so I break out toys to help get me there. He lasts his usual couple minutes & is loving the combo of toys involved. But he blows & I'm not quite there yet. No prob I think .. we can finish me off w/ the toys. But .... as soon as he is done, He complains the toy is too loud & kids might hear. Helllo ... he sure didn't mind the noise when he was getting off. So there goes my mood, I turn the toy off and he is snoring in 2 seconds flat. I'm left hanging as always! He knows he hasn't been "doing it" for me lately. I don't want to make him feel not good enough or put pressure on him so, I've reassured him it's ok .. it's all good. He's pretty sensitive regarding this subject, so I've tried to reassure him that I desire & want him etc etc and it's ok. Because honestly it is ok if I don't get it every time. But how do I let him know I need to "get mine" every now and then without hurting his feelings ... I mean I've told him this lately, but it hasn't done any good and I'm afraid if I harp on it ... it will hurt his ego and make things worse. I know he can't last as long as he used to & I can deal w/ that, but by gosh give me a little extra before hand or after ... occasionally. I know I've mostly rambled. It's late & I'm tired. Sorry. Like I said mainly just a vent ... Although I'm completely open to any idea's on how I could talk to him yet again w/ out hurting his feelings. I've been left "hanging" for several months now & frustration is getting to me! I'm brought to the brink of it over & over & left right there .............. I miss the thoughtful awesome lover he once was. | |||
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