I am considering divorce

I apologize for the long post. My husband and I have been married for 14 years, we have no children. We have always loved and respected each other, even now that we are separated. We both agree this separation is for the best, we are actually mature about the situation but I am devastated and wonder if I made the right choice by initiating the separation. There are many reasons I asked him for a separation. The most important one is lack of trust. Two years ago, we found out he has a 15 year old son from a previous relationship. Apparently, he had always suspected this, but the other woman was married at the time and never told him the truth. I never knew this woman existed. I was extremely happy for him, althought a bit devastated becasue I cannot have children. Ever since then, the woman constantly texts him and my husband would hide the texts or "forget" to tell me she texted him. Fast forward to know, I realized I will never give him children, and he obviously wants them. He also cut me off from giving him advise on his biological child, or to talk to him, because the kid's mom "dislikes". The second reason is that I strongly believe he cheated on me; he has always denied it, but my gut feeling said otherwise. While this was happening, he made me feel I was crazy for asking him his whereaouts. He would hide his cellphone, have it always on silent, put a password on the screen, would flip out whenever I went to his truck to look for stuff. He even went as far as changing his passwords to all email accounts and making new ones. WE were always close and would have share email and knew each others passwords. He would also have multiple converstations with different women (that i knew nothing about) until they would post something snarky on his social media page. THe third reason is our sex life, even before his "affair" out sex life was very seldom. We would be intimate perhaps once a month, two at the best. I would ask him what the problem was or if we needed to seek professional help but he would make excuses, most of them directed towards me. This of course, chipped away at my self esteem until only a shadow of what I was remained. When i finally decided to ask for a separation he said he was blindsided but accepted. He says he still loves me and cares for me, but agrees a separation is for the best becuase of all the hurt we have done to each othe. I agree with him. I know a separation is for the best, but I am still very sad. I have read advise and books, I try to hate him or not like him but I cant. I still think he is a wonderful and amazing man. What else can I do?

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