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So I'm seventeen and I've been in a relationship with my girlfriend for seven months (since late December). As you can imagine I was thinking of going forward. When she came round a couple of weeks ago we got to second base- basically, feeling each other and kissing (with underpants on). It was honestly just amazing, it really was. It was the last day of school two weeks ago and I wanted her to come around so we could do it again. She kept avoiding it and in the middle of town after asking and asking, she just said she wasn't really in the mood for it. Fair enough- we had a nice time in town after that anyway. On Saturday she came round again. We got to the point with her with nothing on. I kept asking "is this okay?" but she said she didn't mind. Just as I was taking my hand downstairs, my (five year old) sister walked in. Oh dear. So yeah, that got ruined! However mum isn't working tomorrow and they'll be going out. So she said she'd come then. Thing is, it's very awkward when she says "I don't mind, as long as it's not sex". I've had really awkward talks with her over the past few days. I asked last night if she'd want to try oral and she said no, not yet. I got really upset (which is why I then told her to leave coming tomorrow- I'd better start on my ucas stuff anyway). We spoke even more with me asking what she'd do and she made it clear that hand down pants is as far as she's ready to go at this stage. This is really fair enough and I shouldn't complain. If someone's not ready then don't do it. I just don't want to sound like I've been pressurising her because really I don't mind. I'd like to do things yeah. And every time she has said no I get really upset- I've had depression for a few years now and I just feel rejected about it. And now I just feel like it's going to go downhill. If she did come tomorrow I'd just feel awkward because of what she said. She also sounds really passive- "I don't mind this as long as it's not that" and yeah. I just feel confused. Help? Posted from TSR Mobile

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