Cheated on my wife

I have made the biggest mistake of my life and potentially lost everything. I have been with my wife nearly 10 years, but we were only married last September. In March I made the mistake of attending a massage parlour which I mistakenly considered to be legit. Towards the end of the massage the woman started massaging my penis and to my eternal shame I didn't stop her. I immediately felt guilty about this but decided not to tell my wife. Some weeks later I started having weird feelings in my penis and then developed severe pain in my pelvis and whole genital area. I had to come clean to my wife then but as I started to tell her she crumbled in front of me. I couldn't tell the whole truth so lied and said I stopped her, but was still worried I had caught something. I got tested and was cleared for everything bar herpes because I don't have any sores. However, the pain got worse and worryingly my penis began to lose sensation. My doctor said this was very uncommon and was more than likely psychological, it isn't though. I have put my wife through 3 months of hell over my health concerns and our sex life has suffered immeasurably. Yesterday I had to come clean and told her the full story. Needless to say she is furious with me and wants me out of our flat. She has told her mother who is equally disgusted in me and there is a very real possibility that our marriage is over. My entire family adore her and invested so much into our wedding that they will not be able to forgive me either. I am in absolute pieces over this and cannot imagine my life without her. I made a huge, fleeting mistake and it has potentially cost me my life. I am not looking for sympathy here. I know how much I have messed up and dealt with the situation so badly. Any advice would be greatly appreciated though. Thanks

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