She cheated

Been with my girlfriend for 5 years and recently engaged for 3 months. Shes recently told me she is not happy anymore. She felt we lost the affection that we once had and shes unhappy in where she is in life. She is ready to get married and have kids but I work in sales and with the economy in the dumps I cannot afford to do so right now. Im going back to school so we can have a stable life. For about 3 months she had been acting strange so I had been tracking her phone calls. We have a family plan so I get all the bills. I didnt see anything wrong with who she had been talking to. She has a drinking problem and alcoholism runs in her family. Almost everytime in the past 3 months when she would get drunk we would fight and she would break up with me and give me back the engagment ring. Talk about how unhappy she was and how she doesnt want to be with me. She would say she loves me but isnt happy. One day she got really drunk and wanted to goto a friends house for a party after we left a bar, she refused to come home and went anyways. This party is always hosted by a really good friend of mind, so i know shes at a safe place. This happened again the other day, wanted to goto our friends house to party and I didnt want to. She snuck over there and i discovered the next day where she was. Turns out my really good friend has been talking to her for about 2 months how they want to be together. She has been telling all my friends how she isnt happy with me anymore and wants to be with this other man. The first night they were together there, they made out, took a shower together, then she slept in the same bed as him. The second night they made out but she slept in the guest bedroom. Before i found out about all this she realised she still wanted to be with me, thats why she slept in the guest bedroom the 2nd night. She came home crying, apologzing etc. She agreed to quit drinking completely because we know its been a problem. After we made up and she quit drinking I honestly felt our relationship just got 10x stronger. The next day I get a phone call from a friend and he told me all this info I just wrote, but he also said that she gave him oral sex. She completely denied it. She called him on speaker and asked why everyone is saying she give him oral sex. He said "I dont know its some stupid rumor blah blah blah" BUT he is the one going around telling everyone, yet on the phone he said he didnt know... I thought that was very strange. After drilling her with questions she said that maybe he saying that so that I will leave her and that he may have a chance with her. Because he does want to be with her. I know this Hello everyone, this is my first post and I hope to get some helpful advice. I will try to be as detailed as needed yet as short as possible. because they secretly talked on her work phone so I couldnt track her calling anybody. I have to say she has always been very trust worthy and no one would EVER have though of her to do anything like this. She says she was confused in what she wanted and he was there to listen to her about our problems and eventually it started turning into something more. She is very remorseful, agreed to take AA and go to counsling for us. HOW I FEEL: I love this women more than anything in the world. She has always been my princess and she treats me so good. If i ever wanted anything she was there. Its VERY hard to see myself without her. I love her very much. I do believe she loves me but she did cheat on me. She is doing everything in her power to make things better, but im having a hard time accepting what she has done. It feels like a bad dream. My sister left her husband for a week after she was unhappy after 5 years of marriage. She came back to him and he was fully supportive and took her back. They now have the best relationship. I have talked to my brother-in-law. and she has talked to my sister about everything. My sister believes she loves me unconditionally and regrets it very much. Wow this is alot longer than I wanted it to be. It feels good just to type it all out. What I hope to hear out of this is people that have gone through this and have had a stronger relationship after such an incident. I hope everyone can understand what I just typed.

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