| Let me start with some background information. I'm 24 (going on 25), and I've never dated at all. Unfortunately, I've always been the "hopeless romantic" type that wants to find that special someone, so as you can imagine, it's pretty brutal to get rejected by every single girl I've been the least bit interested in. Last summer, this girl I work with started talking to me and hanging around me. I started seeing a lot of attractive qualities in her, so I started reciprocating that interest. The more we got to know each other, the more I started to really like her, and I can honestly say, there's never been a girl I've connected with on so many levels as well as I have with her. I thought, maybe all the heartache was finally paying off, by presenting me with this awesome girl that's exactly what I want in a person. I asked her out and... she turned me down. A month or two later, she started pulling away our friendship, and that upset me a lot, because I liked having someone I could get along with as well as her. Emotionally, I've been spiraling out since then. I've been missing what we had so badly, and any time I work a shift with her, I just feel awful because we barely say two words to each other anymore. I found out that, prior to me liking her, she dated this other coworker a little. That bugged me, because he's such an obvious "player" type, even she knew it, and she was smart enough where I didn't think she'd fall for that; still, I was upset she'd give him a chance, but not me. A week ago, I found out that she's currently dating another coworker (well, former coworker, now), and I guess he's not as bad as the last guy, but he's still kinda the typical immature "frat boy" type, so I don't get that either. Me and her, we always seemed to consider each other on the same level, in terms of intelligence and maturity. It hurt that she'd give chances to two other, immature coworkers, yet I'm apparently not good enough. I've been anxiously awaiting her to find a new, better job, so she'd be gone and I'd never have to see her again, as I think that might help me a little. But, I found out last night that she actually sought out and got a promotion at the store we work at, and now she's basically my superior, and from the looks of it, I'll be working with her more than ever... I don't know how I'm going to handle this... I know that it seems ridiculous to be so hung up on someone I never even dated, and trust me, I don't like being this way. But I really thought there was something there, I really thought this was the girl I've been looking for this whole time. I know there's "plenty of fish in the sea", but she was such a good match for me that I can't even think about finding someone else. I want someone exactly like her, and what are the odds I'm ever going to find someone exactly like her? I don't want to date someone that doesn't have all the same qualities as she does, but I also don't want to go several years without finding another girl I like as much. I'm sick of being alone and feeling unwanted and unlovable. I want to find my "best friend", and here I finally found the coolest girl I've ever met, and she's just not interested. I just don't know what to do anymore, I don't know how to handle this, I don't know... I feel so hopeless. I feel like I'm never going to be able to date because I'm constantly going to be looking for a girl that's the same as her, and like I said, the odds of me finding that are slim to none. But I just can't see myself truly being happy with someone that doesn't have the same qualities as she does. So I don't know where that leaves me. | |||
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