| I have been trying to cope... I been doing well for the most part. The 180 has helped me detach and I have started talking to new guys. My conversations abut the affair are not prevalent any more to my friends and family... I am now talking about other stuff. So why does this situation haunt me at night. Two night ago I had a dream we were still together, holding hands going on a family trip with my daughter. Last night I had two separate dreams of us together, the second one more disturbing.... In my second dream we were on the phone talking about his affair. I broke down crying because he broke up our family. Then his OW appeared in his apartment to spend the night and I lost it. Crying, begging, pleading, threatening to go to his apartment and confront her. All the while in the dream I kept saying to myself, "This violates the 180, stop!" The dream was so intense that I woke up with my heart racing. I am so happy it was a dream, but why do I keep dreaming of him. It is like that last shred of hope I have just will not die. I am in counseling and my counselor thinks I am doing well with recovery as I did most of the leg work (180, detaching, having him move out, filing court papers, etc.) before I started counseling. I just never expected my dreams to haunt me with his presence or even worse, cause me to lose it. | |||
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