Why can't I get over him?

I met this boy in July. He's 15 and I'm 16. We clicked straight away and eventually we got together, but he lives an hour and a half away so it was basically long distance. We would Skype a lot and text all day, he was so sweet and affectionate, like almost obsessed with me, and I didn't mind, but then he went on his annual holiday to France. I didn't speak to him for 2 weeks. When he came back, things were still good, I was just concerned about this other girl who he had been speaking to. They met online, she lives in America, but they became really good friends. I was occasionally quite distant with him for personal reasons and it wasn't my fault and he didn't like it, he thought I didn't want to tell him anything. Eventually he told this girl (Madison) that he trusted her more than he trusted me because I'm so 'secretive.' (Bearing in mind that I told him one of my most personal secrets which some of my closest friends don't even know.) Anyway, things got worse and eventually we broke up. He admitted that he liked Madison and she had liked him all along. Then they slowly began to drift apart and speak less and she has a boyfriend now or something. Me and him agreed to stay friends and we did, we're still friends now, but I just like him so much and it's not fair. Why can't he see? I make him laugh, I understand him, we even say things at the exact same time for god's sake. It's just not fair. Sometimes I remember the way he used to send me those good morning texts and it really hurts. Maybe he's just not into me like that? I don't know. But it's been 8 months and I don't know what to do. (By the way, he's not the best looking, he's actually quite a mean person as well, but he's still perfect to me somehow. It's confusing. Everything seems to remind me of him and every time I see something funny I think to myself "I can't wait to show him".) I'm so confused right now. Some days I think to myself 'I'm so over him, I'm finally done.' But then other days I think 'He's perfect, why can't he like me back?'

Put the internet to work for you. via Personal Recipe 2629979