| Okay so I have never had any real friends since year 9 of school. I have social anxiety and go bright red when I talk to anyone so I never engage with people unless I have to as I don't like getting embarrassed. I also don't show my true emotions or act playful or tell jokes etc. as I am scared they won't work out. In freshers I made some aquantainces but not as many as everyone else. I also never talk to girls unless i have to as I think they will think I am hitting on them and I think I am ugly anyways and never had a girlfriends so I just don't bother. I made good friends with this one person however he is friends with people I didn't really connect with and they are sharing a house next year. I therefore have to reapply for halls as I have no-one to share a house with. I have joined clubs and made acquaintances but thats it. However I don't even have many acquaintances on my course as I haven't really tried. The thing is, because I haven't had a real friend for the past like 5 years I don't try as I honestly don't think anybody would want to be my friend. My flatmates bum each other. Not literally. On facebook they will always comment and like everything and tell each other how much they love each other or post on their walls and stuff. I have no one posting or talking to me on facebook. I don't know what to do. I can't even be bothered saying more than hi to them when I see them as I just feel I have no chance. I am also nervous of parties and social activities so avoid them. Basically social anxiety has ruined my life so far. What should I do, and has anyone been in this situaton before and what advice can they give. | |||
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