I'm 28, never had party, sex, women and fun as most of all others (except a few times sex at prostitute). My problem is, i dont feel equal to all those who had sex already in highschool and regular sex in years to follow. I just can't and therefor i dont have any will to live anymore. Can't find motivation for anything if i know all people had so much more from youth then me :(
I could meet with many women which i know over facebook (in real life i dont have any friends), but its useless, because i can never be equal to them. They alived so much more then me, therefor i dont feel worth for them.
One girl on facebook told me about how on her school trip all guys had sex with the teacher, 2 years ago. I am crying for half hour now, because it hurts too much... I will never be on the same level as those advanced women who are capable of those things. I will never have such success in life to tell about as all those guys at their 18...
It seems my last worth got lost... i cant live with those facts anymore... i am so behind and not equal to other people...it hurts me too much every day. I feel like i'm closed in the prison with no way out. And everywhere i see just sex.
I see a nurse on tv, i think about how they have sex with doctors. I see a student and think how they have sex with teachers. All people are having sex...
Put the internet to work for you.
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