We've been together for 9 months in total but right now I'm not sure where it's going. I love him and he loves me but I feel like I can't cope with the pressure of a relationship where I hardly get to see him.
When he visits I feel so happy and in in love, when he leaves I feel depressed, lonely and miserable. I have my friends at uni of course but they aren't enough to distract me from thinking about us.
I feel like we're drifting apart slightly too, we used to talk on the phone for like 3 hours every other day, that was a lot I know but now we talk about 3/4 days for less than half an hour each time. He doesn't always reply to me on facebook and such and it upsets me. It's not like I message him loads either because I have to study and I have a life. But I feel like he isn't putting in the time to communicate with me. It's hard enough not being able to see each other for months but half bothered replies and short phone calls are making me sad. Also when he does visit me or I visit him I feel like he spends more time wanting to be physical with me rather than just hanging out.
He studies also but makes time to go out with his friends, hang out in the house with them but doesn't make time for me. We still have 2 years left until we graduate so I'm just thinking is it really worth it and if I can handle this type of relationship for that amount of time. I love him but it's too hard for me. It's distracting me from work. I know I don;t want to be with someone else but it's too hard to cope with the stress and loneliness, I'm not really sure what to do should I carry on and be sad most the time and tolerate it for when I am with him or just maybe take a break and see where it goes?
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