My Husband and I have been together for 7 years. We have only been married for one year but have lived together for almost 5 years. We are expecting our first child in about 3 weeks which is very exciting, but my joy has been dampened by some issues we are having.
Within the last year or so, even before I got pregnant, I have noticed that he has become more and more distant. He spends more time with his video games and his cell phone than he does with me. He has pulled away from me emotionally and physically as well. He was never "in the mood" anymore even before the pregnancy and shows no interest in sharing an intimate relationship in the bedroom. Its almost a miracle that I am pregnant at all because it was very rare that we would have sexual relations.
About a month ago I caught him watching pornography and masturbating in bed while I was asleep next to him. We have had an issue with pornography in the past and he swore up and down he would never watch it again because he knows how much it hurts my self-esteem and that it is unhealthy for our relationship with each other.He promised me again that night that it wouldn't happen anymore, but I am having trouble trusting him, especially with his lack of interest in having any physical intimacy with me. How Do I know that he has really stopped? I used to think the porn thing was no big deal, but then it started to replace out sexual relationship.
I know that being pregnant can change a man's perspective on sex and it can decrease desire or fire it up, but this was an issue even before the pregnancy. It's been an issue for a while now. For me, sex is an important part of marriage. It's not even just the physical act that I miss; it's the intimacy and the bond that I miss. I miss just being with him. I miss him being interested in us both inside and outside of the bedroom. We can be in the same room together but still feel like we are a million miles apart. He rarely spends time with me anymore and it is almost impossible to get him to put down his phone, get off the internet or his gaming console and spend quality time with me.
I have tried to talk to him about it but he just shuts down and says that "he doesn't know how to respond or what to say". Our conversations regarding our issues usually end up one sided and it ends up feeling like I am attacking him because he won't say anything back or even try to talk to me about it. I am trying to figure out how to talk to him without it seeming like am bringing him a list of his "failures". I want to be the supportive wife that he needs, but I feel rejected and lonely and my husband doesn't seem to understand how I feel even though I have tried to talk to him about it.
I love him so much and I try to show him every day how much he means to me. I tell him every day how much I love him even when I am upset, I do little things as often as possible to show him I care. He's not a bad guy and there are still moments, however brief, that He shows me that He still cares too. I know he loves me but I don't know how to bring back the bond that we used to have and that scares me.
Our baby will be here soon and I'm concerned that the stress of being brand new first time parents will drive us even further apart. How can I mend our relationship without making him feel inadequate or attacked? How do I talk to him in a supportive way that shows him I still care? I've tried so many times before and things will be great for a day or two, then it goes right back to the way it is now.. What do I do?
Within the last year or so, even before I got pregnant, I have noticed that he has become more and more distant. He spends more time with his video games and his cell phone than he does with me. He has pulled away from me emotionally and physically as well. He was never "in the mood" anymore even before the pregnancy and shows no interest in sharing an intimate relationship in the bedroom. Its almost a miracle that I am pregnant at all because it was very rare that we would have sexual relations.
About a month ago I caught him watching pornography and masturbating in bed while I was asleep next to him. We have had an issue with pornography in the past and he swore up and down he would never watch it again because he knows how much it hurts my self-esteem and that it is unhealthy for our relationship with each other.He promised me again that night that it wouldn't happen anymore, but I am having trouble trusting him, especially with his lack of interest in having any physical intimacy with me. How Do I know that he has really stopped? I used to think the porn thing was no big deal, but then it started to replace out sexual relationship.
I know that being pregnant can change a man's perspective on sex and it can decrease desire or fire it up, but this was an issue even before the pregnancy. It's been an issue for a while now. For me, sex is an important part of marriage. It's not even just the physical act that I miss; it's the intimacy and the bond that I miss. I miss just being with him. I miss him being interested in us both inside and outside of the bedroom. We can be in the same room together but still feel like we are a million miles apart. He rarely spends time with me anymore and it is almost impossible to get him to put down his phone, get off the internet or his gaming console and spend quality time with me.
I have tried to talk to him about it but he just shuts down and says that "he doesn't know how to respond or what to say". Our conversations regarding our issues usually end up one sided and it ends up feeling like I am attacking him because he won't say anything back or even try to talk to me about it. I am trying to figure out how to talk to him without it seeming like am bringing him a list of his "failures". I want to be the supportive wife that he needs, but I feel rejected and lonely and my husband doesn't seem to understand how I feel even though I have tried to talk to him about it.
I love him so much and I try to show him every day how much he means to me. I tell him every day how much I love him even when I am upset, I do little things as often as possible to show him I care. He's not a bad guy and there are still moments, however brief, that He shows me that He still cares too. I know he loves me but I don't know how to bring back the bond that we used to have and that scares me.
Our baby will be here soon and I'm concerned that the stress of being brand new first time parents will drive us even further apart. How can I mend our relationship without making him feel inadequate or attacked? How do I talk to him in a supportive way that shows him I still care? I've tried so many times before and things will be great for a day or two, then it goes right back to the way it is now.. What do I do?
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