Hi, I'm not sure how to start and what to say exactly but the problem is that I'm not attracted to my beautiful wife at all.
sorry for bad English as I'm Italian. I'm 32 and my wife is 30. we are married for 4 years.no kids. but educated to Msc.
when I was single I have had several years of sexual experience with my girlfriends. non of them as beautiful as my wife. the odd thing about my previous relations was that they made me aroused by texting or when I imagine having sex with them but when they were in my bed I was not attracted to them as much as when the were only in my mind.
when I saw my wife I fell in love with her because she is beautiful and smart. Now when I see her face I still believe that she is as beautiful as what i saw 4 years ago. one of my problems is that I saw her like an innocent body so it is hard for me to do or imagine dirty things about her for sex.I think that she is beautiful with a nice body but not hot for me !!!! this is when other women look hot for me and arose me hard even ugly ones. I usually have sexual fantasies about every woman which I saw except my wife. I prefer to masturbate but not having sex with her. she is hot and she tell me that she is ready for intercourse every night but I always try to neglect the situation by making fun out of it and changing the subject. Now we have sex about every 10 days and I don't enjoy that anymore. I started watching porn more and doing masturbation in bath without giving her a clue. The problem is going to be out of control as now I don't have any sexual desire to every wom an who is in contact with my wife. It is like she emissions negative waves to her surroundings and make them useless for me. previously i have some sexual fantasies about her sisters but now I don't have any sexual desire to her sisters as well.
i know that it hurts her but this is not important for me. Even I know that maybe she start cheating on me in near future but that don't make me mad!!! at the beginning i loved her but now I just like her and pretend to love her. she says that she loves me and I know that this is true because i see how much care she have about me.
this marriage is meaningless for me now. I don't want to have a baby with her so i always rejected her requests for making a baby. She don't know any of these as I act my role professionally as good husband except sex. sometimes i think that if she left me i will be happy.
Now I'm worry about her life. I'm afraid i'm ruining both our lives.
She is smart, beautiful , educated. She always do nice things to me. She works outside and do all the house works too. I usually don't help her in house works and she never nag about it. I can say that the only bad thing about her is that she always persist on not letting my family come to our home. so that annoyed me specially in our early marriage year. we have had several argument about the problem and after every argument I left talking to her for several days. Now she knows that after every argument I will not speak to her for 2-3 days so she always try avoid arguing with me about problems. i know that this is not good but It seems to be out of my control i can't see anybody say that I'm not doing the right thing. this really make me mad.
Today I think I'm in a big hole and cant come out of it as if i divorce she will break down and if continue to this life I should act like a good husband .
I don't like myself anymore I know that something is wrong with me. but I don't know what is it. i want to see her like other women and do hot sex with her but i can't. past month i thought that porn may cause this situation so I didn't watch porn for a month but no change in our relation! Now the happiest moments of my life is when she is not in house . to my bad luck this occurs at most 2 hours a week!
I do think about my ex-girlfriends and wish to start an affair with one of them . I'm cheating on my wife by texting a fat girl on internet. sometimes I laugh like a crazy man when I think about having a beautiful wife in bed and having an affair with an ugly girls on internet. I'm really a jerk. :(:(:(
I don't know what to do. i will appreciate every little help.
Thank you
sorry for bad English as I'm Italian. I'm 32 and my wife is 30. we are married for 4 years.no kids. but educated to Msc.
when I was single I have had several years of sexual experience with my girlfriends. non of them as beautiful as my wife. the odd thing about my previous relations was that they made me aroused by texting or when I imagine having sex with them but when they were in my bed I was not attracted to them as much as when the were only in my mind.
when I saw my wife I fell in love with her because she is beautiful and smart. Now when I see her face I still believe that she is as beautiful as what i saw 4 years ago. one of my problems is that I saw her like an innocent body so it is hard for me to do or imagine dirty things about her for sex.I think that she is beautiful with a nice body but not hot for me !!!! this is when other women look hot for me and arose me hard even ugly ones. I usually have sexual fantasies about every woman which I saw except my wife. I prefer to masturbate but not having sex with her. she is hot and she tell me that she is ready for intercourse every night but I always try to neglect the situation by making fun out of it and changing the subject. Now we have sex about every 10 days and I don't enjoy that anymore. I started watching porn more and doing masturbation in bath without giving her a clue. The problem is going to be out of control as now I don't have any sexual desire to every wom an who is in contact with my wife. It is like she emissions negative waves to her surroundings and make them useless for me. previously i have some sexual fantasies about her sisters but now I don't have any sexual desire to her sisters as well.
i know that it hurts her but this is not important for me. Even I know that maybe she start cheating on me in near future but that don't make me mad!!! at the beginning i loved her but now I just like her and pretend to love her. she says that she loves me and I know that this is true because i see how much care she have about me.
this marriage is meaningless for me now. I don't want to have a baby with her so i always rejected her requests for making a baby. She don't know any of these as I act my role professionally as good husband except sex. sometimes i think that if she left me i will be happy.
Now I'm worry about her life. I'm afraid i'm ruining both our lives.
She is smart, beautiful , educated. She always do nice things to me. She works outside and do all the house works too. I usually don't help her in house works and she never nag about it. I can say that the only bad thing about her is that she always persist on not letting my family come to our home. so that annoyed me specially in our early marriage year. we have had several argument about the problem and after every argument I left talking to her for several days. Now she knows that after every argument I will not speak to her for 2-3 days so she always try avoid arguing with me about problems. i know that this is not good but It seems to be out of my control i can't see anybody say that I'm not doing the right thing. this really make me mad.
Today I think I'm in a big hole and cant come out of it as if i divorce she will break down and if continue to this life I should act like a good husband .
I don't like myself anymore I know that something is wrong with me. but I don't know what is it. i want to see her like other women and do hot sex with her but i can't. past month i thought that porn may cause this situation so I didn't watch porn for a month but no change in our relation! Now the happiest moments of my life is when she is not in house . to my bad luck this occurs at most 2 hours a week!
I do think about my ex-girlfriends and wish to start an affair with one of them . I'm cheating on my wife by texting a fat girl on internet. sometimes I laugh like a crazy man when I think about having a beautiful wife in bed and having an affair with an ugly girls on internet. I'm really a jerk. :(:(:(
I don't know what to do. i will appreciate every little help.
Thank you
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