I was in a relationship 13 months ago with a guy who I considered my absolute everything. We were together for 2 years. I had nothing but love for him but it seems like that wasn't enough for him. Before the break up we were both mutually very much in love. 13 months onwards and I'm still not over him, I got rid of every materialistic possession of his a year ago yet a day does no go by that I don't think about, don't dream about him. It's been 13 months and I still don't know why he broke up with me, I still don't have the answer from him. I send him a text and email (which was read) shortly after the breakup and he replied saying that I should forget him. About 6 months ago I send him another email expressing all my emotions, explaining that its impossible for me to forget him etc. and how sorry I am for whatever I have done but no response. He uploaded new photos on fb (which to my dismay are public) a few months ago and he looks happy yet the pages he 'likes' are usually related to 'I still am in love with you' and 'happiness for you and tears for me' and soapy stuff like that. I've deactivated fb for a month now hoping that it would help me move on but it hasn't. I heard from a mutual friend about 3 weeks ago that he had proposed but the girl has refused. This hit me like a knife. Last night I just cried my heart out. I've done everything possible to erase him and move on but I'm constantly comparing others to him. I spend 2 months travelling around Europe, I've thrown everything out, I've deleted all his emails and texts and his number, I've taken up swimming and running and I go uni and work part time. But I still feel so lost and isolated. There's still a part of me hanging on that he will return, how can I get rid of this feeling and hope? I genuinely do not want another relationship and have lost all trust and respect in men.
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