Okay so lets start with the fact that I am 16, and never done anything (as in only ever hugged a guy who I am friends with nothing).
So the other day I was at a Halloween get together with a couple of friends, so there was me, my best friend and her boyfriend, her boyfriend's best friend and one of my other really close guy friends. I had never met her boyfriend or his friend(lets call him X).
We started out by watching a horror film, so I was sat on the floor and X came and sat next to me and kept edging closer to me and we ended up being so close we were touching, we talked quietly for quite a bit of the film too; the lights were off so no one noticed until the end of the film.
After the film we played truth or dare and somehow all of either of our dares had to do with each other, one of which was kissing. I refused and took a forfeit, but he seemed up for it. After that everyone kept telling us that we'd be cute together and all that sort of stuff, trying to get us to "hurry up and make out already" but I wouldn't. Then my guy friend took me out of the room to tell me that X really liked me; because that didn't make it anymore awkward at all...
So yeah, X kept trying to get close to me, and I wouldn't let him, I feel kind of bad now because he was a really nice guy and I might even like him but I just couldn't do anything. I didn't even get his number, and he doesn't have Facebook or my number and we aren't from the same town so zero chance of bumping into him without it being purposeful.
Now this may seem like a one off incident but it isn't, it has happened in the past in similar circumstances. So I liked this guy for a long time, and he knew, he told me he liked me too but I couldn't bring myself to do anything (This went on for almost a year and a half). Then he left the area (he got expelled for drug dealing [I didn't know about that until he was expelled]) and I doubt I will ever see him again.
I don't know if it's just that I am not ready, or if I don't actually like them, or if I am ready but just to scared...
TSR please give me some advice on what to do...
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