I don't even know how to begin this. But I am pretty sure my husband has an addiction to sex....and its gotten worse and worse over the years. He's always been real critical that we don't do it as often or how he wants. We do at least 3-4 times a week. But lately its getting to a boiling point about him being so mad he cant even barely look at me because I'm not dressing "sexy" for him at all times. I cant even begin to get into how hard I am getting this driven into my head, that I'm inadequate in bed and that I am not up to his standards in regard to how I look/wear. MULTIPLE TIMES I've woken up during the night and he is doing his way with me. I take sleeping pills to get sleep so I'm pretty incoherent. Last night I was laying in bed and he decided that he was going to do what he wanted, he has no cares if it hurts me, or makes me uncomfortable, its so unbelievably humiliating and confusing. I feel like I'm being raped by my own husband. He K NOWS what he is doing, he KNOWS that things hurt, he KNOWS how humiliating he is making me and he gets off on it. It gives him all the power he is wanting. This has happened in the past but not quite to the extreme that it did last night. I'm feeling so lost, empty, dead inside, confused. I know in my heart this is a legitimate thing but at the same time so embarrassing I cant talk to anyone about it. I feel like something has sparked him where he is having to take it to this whole new level. Does anyone have any experience with this? How they dealt with it? Maybe what gave them the strength to say enough is enough? Just feeling so dead inside and terribly confused.
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